… I’ve never really thought of myself to be, but then again maybe I am. It’s as they say “The higher you are, the harder you fall.”
but honey, you are wasting my time. there are days where i think, maybe he changed. maybe he’ll do something different today and surprise me. but with all this time lost, the days still going by, i’m not so sure anything will be different. old habits die hard, resolutions easily become overdue. it’s not fun waiting around. it’s not fun going nowhere. i don’t know what’s on your mind and i can’t read you like i can other people. but if you are reading this, these are my feelings, and for the millionth time, i’ll be done waiting.
I’ve always wanted to travel the world. I made plans with someone to see Europe with them, but I don’t know if those plans still exist. All I know is that my dream is still alive and that even if I end up flying solo, I’m going to see the world because I want to.
And sometimes it’s just really hard to smile. I’ve smiled through my days but when I think about it, it’d only in the moment and I’m just not happy. I can smile when I’m distracted but I don’t ever want it to reach the point where my smiles become fake …
if i can achieve freedom at last, i will be happy (: