Life isn’t fair. Not to you, not to me, not to anybody. Because in the end, we all die, right? How are you supposed to react when you realize the clock is ticking? Maybe not for you, but for someone you care about. Why are we so helpless in these moments? Why does it seem like our prayers haven’t been answered? Was it a selfish request to ask for a life to be extended? I so much want to resent Him for not granting us a miracle. But I already knew that “He gives and He takes.” I just wish she didn’t have to suffer the way that she did. Her battle is over now and the only ones that have to suffer are the ones she left behind.
I can’t believe you’re gone, Sandy. Why did you have to leave so early? I just can’t believe it … I wish I could have seen you one last time before you became a memory to me. You’ll always be in my thoughts and in my heart. You are a true angel and I was blessed to know you.
Rest in peace and paradise, Spunkz.
Gosh have I been M.I.A. on tumblr or what? Sorry, lovies, ain’t got time for this no mo’! Buttt, I’d like to keep blogging about my college life so without further ado, here’s my first day of school!:
If y’all forgot how hot it was at the beginning of this week, uh- you can’t cause we’re still sittin’ in it! But anyways, I haven’t taken the bus in like foreverrr and waiting to just take one was unbearableeee. Even though I waited for like five minutes, I was sweating bullets- so much that when I actually got on the bus, I couldn’t rest my back against seat. There was a little Asian girl and boy that were sitting on the back corner seats of the bus and I honestly thought they didn’t have a guardian or anything with them, even though they were soooo young/little! The little girl, who was sitting farther away from me than her brother, pretended there was something on her chair that bothered her back and sat next to me. (Her brother even checked and said there was nothing haha) Anyways, when they got off, they waited for their grandma who was sitting at the front of the bus! Called it hehe. I waited another burning five minutes for the next bus and saw Andrew’s friend (that I looks a lot like Sofia/Rita Saade). When the bus came, this one man let me on before him and later asked me on the bus if I had two quarters. I gave him one despite having two because I have trust and charity issues haha. I found my class easily and saw Jorge on the way there (Yay, he remembers me!) So I get to class and of course it’s crowded as heck and I ask a girl if I was in the right place at the right time haha. I notice Raquel and Edwin who’s with Tam and Cece (surpriseee!) When class starts, Prof. Rinden tells us people in the back to come on in and Cece sees me and beckons me over. Raquel then saw me and we exchanged waves. I noticed I was standing next to a girl from either geo or trig (seriously my memory with faces and names has been declining so bad qq). I also saw a guy from my English 101 class (also forgot his name) and he had walked out with his friend mid-way through the class. After some time, Rinden told people to come in again cause he needed to take attendance (after waiting half an hour) and so this one cute guy came and sat against the wall right by the professor. I didn’t want to keep making eye contact with him even though he was cute, so I swear I started staring at my professor LOL Anyways, during roll call, Raquel and I were like mouthing to each other to see if we were in the same section cause it’s combined lecture, but we’re not ): Kavin came in while Rinden was talking about buying cats- yes, cats … expensive, dead cats that have been sitting in formaldehyde … waiting for dissection … D: Then we were let off early so that the adds could sign a list. I said bye to Cece and Tam talked to Raquel a bit about classes and things. Then I left to start my lengthiest break in the history of my college career by checking book sale postings for an anatomy book. I saw Brian (aha! I remembered a name! lol) from Eng 103 but I didn’t say hi or anything cause I’m an anti-social being like that. Went to cool off in la biblioteca and tried to check ACE about Pilates cause I didn’t have clothes or anything with me. Then I went to the VP Art Museum to wait for Patrick to pick me up … but even thoguh I gave him specific directions, I ended up walking to Carl’s Jr. to meet him up haha. We caught up, talked about school while going to PCC. Found parking right away yayy! We walked on campus and I was surprised to see jocks walking around cause you normally don’t see them at ELAC except walking to class, to their car, in class, or at the colosseum- and I only mention this because one of them was a hottie! Even though I forgot what he looked like by now (; Saw Seth Casanova and James Renes when Patrick went to the restroom and then we went to wait in line for my bus pass. The line was hecka long, past the stairs, which I thought would have died down considering it was like 4 in the afternoon. We chatted for the time to fly, so it wasn’t too bad- Patrick was totally checking out this fobby dude decked out in Stussy hahah. We got my bus card in no time and then walked down Colorado to check job postings for Patrick and to get me some food because I hadn’t eaten lunch yet. So as I was eating my footlong, Patrick filled out a form at Panda with a pen I never got back haha (it’s whatevs, I just missed it the day after cause all I had were a bunch of colored pens bahah). So i was running late on time and so Patrick speeds and switches lanes like crazy so that I was only five minutes late to class (thanks, homie!) Thankfully the Pilates instructor wasn’t even in yet, so I started talking to a girl (whose name I now know but had forgotten within five minutes). Cut in the middle of conversation because I noticed that I was wearing shoes - whoops, and still had my backpack next to me unlike everyone else- so I quickly caught on and put those in a cubby. Then after learning that Becky had just moved from Arizona and had her BA in business management and was looking for house though living with her husband who owns apartment complexes in East while back to school for a degree in accounting, the professor comes in and asks the class with an irritable tone, why we weren’t dressed and ready to go. Everyone was just like …. or at least I was. But he quickly realized that we were his beginning class and then cleared up that he has some Pilates II students mixed up in this section (only three, including Becky who actually has never taken Pilates haha). He separates the class and then takes roll and of course says my name wrong but I correct and he makes a note of. He shows us his website on-screen and our two assignments that were due on Wednesday before letting us out wayyyy early. But was I completely thankful for that- such a tiring day going here and there. I go to Daiso to check up on some supplies that I need for the class before going home though, and run into Sandy! She had actually texted and called me to go to lunch but my darn phone was already dead mid-day, not to mention I was busy anyways. But we chit-chat for a bit before we part ways. I catch the bus on time thankfully (hooray for good timing all day!) and then wait for the next bus with some interesting people. One was an old man with a cast all around his neck D: Another was a girl who was smoking right by me, who then moved away because she either was done with her break or courteous enough not to let me inhale all that secondhand smoke. And lastly, was the Viet guy on his cell who I might have assumed to be gay because the way he was talking, which totally reminded me of Aaryn (BB15).
And that was my first day of school! hahah the rest of the week to come! (Hopefully all tonight if I can!!)